Caroline, I've been thinking about you since hearing your sad news. I know this is a tough time for you but you will get through it and as someone else said, you will think of your grandmother in the future and smile as I do mine. As my grandmother got older she became unafraid to speak her mind often to our embarrassement but of course we look back now and laugh about it, happy memories. We miss her but we have that and you will too although you are probably too upset to think about that now.