I am so sorry, Nooey, even though he did not like you, you were determined to love and nurture him into a friend at least. But now you can concentrate on getting you a baby, which is better in the long run, I think you will be more satisfied.
I know you are suffering from a broken heart, but it will heal, you have us for sympathy, we will help you thru it until you can get another one. Hang in there and keep us informed as to what you do and what you find out about another grey.
Keep your chin up, another grey baby is out there just waiting for you, have faith.