Ray, no apology necessary. As family and a fellow Amazon owner, I completely understand how difficult it is to move on after such a tragic loss. Coming here and the constant reminders that are here has got to be very difficult. The love of an Amazon, it is a bond like no other creature. It can never be put into words, it is only something you can experience . Many will not understand what I mean, but I know you do. My heart has ached for you every day since we lost Cricket. But it is Thanks to Cricket , that I have the relationship I do with Nilah. Why I have undying love for her, and undying patience when she acts out like an Amazon will. Cricket and you have taught me so much about my Nilah. I only wish that one day you will again find happiness with another Amazon that needs all you have to give.