Go Laurie you can do it! REALLY REALLY!
Even though I have never smoked I do have people around me that have and I understand that this might not be a super advise since I will never fully understand how incredibly hard it is to quit smoking.
But my parents smoked my whole life until I was about 13 and I will never forget that last year, the year they were quiting. It was especially hard on my mother but one day at a time she did it finally. Thank God, but she had such a HARD time, difficult for a child to understand but today I understand it better.
But her smoking did have consequences for her life, she has now been fighting cancer almost 8 years and the doctors don't know of any other reasons for the cancer than smoking, of course it could be something else but it is still very likely.
For me it is easy to use the smoking as a reason, because sometimes you just need a reason, something to answer your "why?" questions.
And today I get to "suffer" for my mothers bad decisions,(apart from worrying and suffering seeing her so sick). I was applying for "extra health insurance" the other day (everybody is insured by the government here in Iceland but you can get extra one that pays for everything if something big might happen to you, cancer, heart decease etc, it even pays you your salary if you are out of work) but the insurance company wont give it to me because my mother has cancer. That is the only reason, I am healthy and have never been sick in my life. This is really sad and I am not really angry about it, especially not at my mother. But sometimes the consequences of our actions are much bigger than we ever think about. So smoking doesn't only hurt one, it can hurt the people around you, in more ways than one knows.
I am just telling you this because sometimes its good to have a higher reason, I know that might not really help during those hard moments but it might help the cause looking at the big picture. I come to that inclusion because when I first met my boyfriend he smoked. He really liked me and I liked him to, so I told him about my fear of smoking and my mother being sick for so long (6 years then. So he just decided to quit smoking and he didn't even tell anyone, just quit. He had a higher reason that really really helped him. Sometimes I think he is superman because it seemed just so easy for him to quit... but for him it was that alternative reason, he knew his life would be better with me in it.... awww thats so romantic...