I am so sorry! It's hard to say goodbye to someone special. Caring of birds is too risky and difficult, but you did very well and gave a safe place. Hope this one will not leave you alone. I had a pair of parrots last year. They were so beautiful. I always felt relaxed and happy with them. A few month ago, I lost both of them. It was very sad moment for me and I was feeling quite alone. Then, I decided to create pencil sketch drawing of pair. One of my friends helped to create it and it is hanged on wall in my house. Whenever I feel alone, I see that sketch and feel like they are talking with me.